Sorry to hear that, you have my sympathies. My ex-wife and grandparent (Nan) are autistic (I have ADHD) so I have some knowledge and experience about autism. Have you tried dating other autistic women? These types of romantic matches tend to have much more success than autistic/allistic matches in my experience.

When I offered this insight to another autistic man, he got very offended. I hope my insight has not offended you, I wish you the best of luck.