I've read many of your replies recently - with respect, I believe the main issue preventing you from forming a healthy, loving relationship with a woman is that you have low self-esteem. I sense some entitlement as well, like you are owed attention for your qualities and effort. Let me tell you, no-one is owed anything, you work on yourself for yourself, not to gain a partner.

I apologise if my assessment is harsh, but it's a hard truth you need to hear. Please get yourself to therapy as soon as possible. I've had a lot of therapy in the last few years, it's changed my life. Good luck!