I'm sorry you went through that. My mother also has a history of being sexually abused that she has never healed from. My father has anger issues and fear of emasculation that he also has never resolved.

It's taken me many years to heal from the shame that stems from my childhood. But it's not my shame, it's only inherited. For the shameful actions I've taken as an adult, I've also taken responsibility for.

As well as talk therapy, I recommend neurofeedback, it's changed my life. I finally feel at peace in myself after 44 years. I've been having different forms of therapy for about 5 years now. It's a long journey, but worth it. Best to start as soon as possible. Good luck!