I completely agree, forgiveness is not real if it's forced, it needs to happen naturally. If it never comes at all, that is ok.

After therapy, I'm working towards acceptance and if that is the end result of my feelings towards my parents, I'm happy with that. Just to be free of this anger and unworthiness would be great (I'm getting there).

Perhaps forgiveness will come with time, but at this stage I'm not so sure and I'm not aiming for it. I just want to be in a good place of acceptance for the trauma and neglect I experienced.