Great article, I’ve struggled with a lot of the teachings and ideas in Christianity. Jesus is awesome, the rest is problematic.
I highly recommend the following — don’t let the title put you off, Mitch Horrowitz’s articles and lectures (on Youtube) are really enlightening and accessible:
https://medium.com/@mitch.horowitz.nyc/satanism-the-dark-alternative-e7f46e1f19ef
https://medium.com/@mitch.horowitz.nyc/god-of-the-outsiders-a-devilish-primer-595f5bc7d0d9
“What kind of God would plant a Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, a Tree of Life, the two being synonymous, in the midst of paradise only to tell you that you cannot eat from it? What kind of paradise is that, which doesn’t allow measurement, evaluation, and growth? What kind of God would tell you that if you eat from the tree you’ll die? None of these things are true, so said the serpent to Eve. And they did not die. They did gain knowledge of good and evil. ” — Mitch